Choosing It Even When We Feel Unworthy Of It

November 14, 2021

Ahhh!!! 3 weeks in!!!
This has been the most radical journey of embodiment I have ever been through.

Vulnerable truth: One day I feel like I’m destined to be an Eckhart Tolle and the next I feel I’m this awakened goddess meant to explore my sexual fire and power. lol

And the greatest awakening so far has been to stop trying to label myself… I am this or I am that.

I am the girl who went from welfare to wealth and along the way have found many parts of myself that don’t fit into anything I see in the world.
I don’t find anyone who is an embodiment of who I am because I am a snowflake. I am not meant to be like someone else… I am meant to be me.
All of ME.

I am a spiritual teacher because I have overcome the religious fear teachings and found SOUL.

I am a money teacher because I walked myself from the welfare life to wealth while terrified I’d turn into tome self-absorbed, snobby human…

I am a feminine goddess embodiment teacher because I have cried myself to sleep for months and months allowing myself to explore all of my sensuality and feminine power while I was shut down and fully in my protective masculine having no idea how to be the expressed, magnetic feminine I imagined was possible.

I am an online business mentor because I created a million dollars in 25 months from ground zero with no business experience what-so-ever. And continued to have success in the most profound, simple of ways online.

I am a personal development mentor because I’ve had the courage to become one. And continue to choose great over good in all areas of my life.

I am a wellness coach because I got off of anti-anxiety meds and anti-depressants, let go of needing alcohol, overcame 21 years of bulimia, and shed 70 lbs.

Nothing I do is for money or because I have to… and nothing I will ever do will be for money… I do everything I do because it’s who I am… and money is a tool that I get to use to create a greater life and impact on the world.

I am a wild, liberated, soulful, wealthy & spiritual business coach who embodies the evolution and creates ways for others to get the same results.
I believe we get to have it all, but we must choose it and this is the hardest part.

This challenge has been about choosing the newest level of greatness even when I feel unworthy or doubt I can have it. Doubt it exists for me. I acknowledge the thoughts and choose them anyways.


And I do this together with you, because without YOU, what is the point?
You are the whole reason and you will always be the whole reason.

For me… and my life and loved ones.
For you… and your life and loved ones.

m xx

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That’s easy for you to say.
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What’s that you say?
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And I chuckled.
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