How I Heal The Deepest Parts Of Myself Daily

May 2, 2023

As I meditate… I begin to feel the noise and chaos inside…

All the things I’m tracking with 6 kids…
The mistakes I’ve made and things I wish I’d done differently.
Concerns about doing things well…
Insecurities about not being enough…

And I keep breathing and being present to them all…


I love them the best I can, I tell them each that I accept them fully as they are and they don’t have to do anything. I’m going to take very good care of them. And I stay for as long as they need.

As I feel the cloudy waters settle… I begin to see HOW MUCH is going on in this inner Universe…

And I see how big I love.
How I want to do a good job.

“Wow Mandy… your heart is so beautiful. These are such beautiful desires.”

I feel myself begin to glow…
I love being this woman.
I accept all the sensations in my body that come with it.
I’m willing to feel it all, experience it all and walk through it all.
I’m willing to be diligent in my work and find peace again and again through it all to bring peace to it all.

I love on the part of me that feels stupid loving myself and honoring my heart’s intentions… and I remind her she’s loved too.

on and on this goes…
and as I continue my patience expands, my heart strengthens, my compassion develops….

All from simply loving all parts of me.
Em-bodi-ment.

mp ❤


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