I Was Missing It All

May 3, 2023

I thought I understood what I was being conditioned to be and breaking out of it…. But it took getting the result to see it for what it was…

The conditioning we are undergoing and being influenced to BE, is…..
to look perfect, have all the things and show the world we did it…. this what makes you valuable in our society….

Yet…. ALL of the people I’ve met who have done this, including myself… have loads of stress still, and if not more than ever. (There are numerous studies showing that after $40k a year, more money brings zero amount more happiness.) It’s not about having the money or not it’s about needing more and more and more. Spending then needing more. The sorry that more makes us more valuable.

We are being conditioned to believe that more wealth and more physical beauty bring us joy… and yet it brings the most amount of comparison, stress, insecurity, fear, and disconnection from our loved ones.

It just does.
Tell me it’s not true?

Maybe we don’t let people see that it’s true…
Maybe we numb out pretty good and don’t feel it all.
Maybe we think that forever striving for the goals isn’t suffering (yet it’s a feeling of never… ever… arriving)

Maybe some things bring temporary joy… a good hair day lol. A good weight month. A good money year.

But the stress remains.
The fear carries on.
The insecurity remains.

We think we see the conditioning yet still we strive to be IG-worthy… and don’t even notice.

We feel less than her, and don’t notice what’s BEHIND THAT, we just criticize ourselves.

We feel stress to produce more, and don’t even notice what’s behind that… we just push ourselves harder or numb out to avoid the pressure.

It’s not you, it’s conditioning…
Conditioning is behind it.

We are beautiful as we are, ALL humans… but how often does that feel true? Why not?

We are ALL the same, no matter the politics, the religion, the country…

We are worthy to be happy now… as it all is, without one drop more.

And our worth has absolutely nothing what so ever to do with looks, money, followers, success, things….

And unless we are LIVING that truth, we have work to do… not to BE better but to FEEL better.

To break out of the never ending race…..
Because there is nowhere to get to in this race… it is nothing more than a waste of precious life.

Literally.
It’s PURE MAGIC that we get to be human! I mean, my gosh…. What were the chances? To be here on this beautiful and mysterious ball of earth… and then to waste it chasing and stressing?

What if the most valuable thing you could ever BE for others is the very same thing that would bring you immense joy?

I’m 100% certain it is.

mp 💛


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