ego Archives - Mandy Perry

Wealth desires & God desires: what’s the truth behind it all?

Jan 9, 2025 | Spiritual Growth

Are our desires ego-driven shallowness????
Are they God’s guidance?
Am I meant to be led by them? To deny them????

HERE IS THE MAGIC I’VE COME TO UNDERSTAND ABOUT THEM…

“I trust my desires are right.”
We begin here. RIGHT HERE is where this adventure begins.

And I do… I truly trust my desires are RIGHT desires now… and it’s like a 1000 lb weight lifted off of me.

But of course God would activate a desire in me. What a perfectly brilliant way to communicate to us. No? What else would a loving Source itself use but the joy of the life force of desire to activate us humans?

But when I look back at some of my desires like looks and Chanel bags and other silly things… I question if I was off base with God’s will?

How could that be in alignment with God’s will? Shouldn’t I question my desires? Aren’t these some self-absorbed, superficial desires? Didn’t it mean I needed validation to some degree somewhere inside? Isn’t that OFF?

No. Not even close.
My desires were never wrong… I simply have outgrown myself again and again and again until old desires feel silly.

They weren’t silly at the time… they were PERFECT.
How do I know they were perfect?
Because they got me to the place where that part of my ego died and I no longer had any attachment to them… which then opened space to LOVE & serve even more.

I will never question my deep soul’s longings again. Never.
I will stop looking back feeling like I should have been THEN… the way I desire to be NOW.

How absurd.
As if we are all supposed to be in the exact same place of our journey all desiring the same thing. Lol

That’s literal nonsense.
It’s absurd even.

We sit around waiting for proof it’s what God wants us to do… yet the inkling to do so IS the answer. The desire to experience it IS the answer.

It’s already perfect.
And it doesn’t have to make sense to some arbitrary standard someone else in a different place has set.
Some societal standard.

If I had followed the societal standard of not caring about wealth and all the wealthy things… I’d NEVER have had the chance to outgrow the validation I needed to let go of the “welfare” Mandy.

I’d still feel like that stuff would make me more valuable. Buying $20k worth of Chanel bags was invaluable because they became as important to me as my favorite Walmart backpack.

That desire was EXACTLY perfect as only the Source of all life could know…

So we drop all absurd judgment of ourselves and others.

We stay out of the sacred place between a soul and its maker and we get still and hear our own deep yearnings, longings and promptings….
Superficial things awaken people all the time.
Deep powerful soul shifts knock people out of the game all the time.

We’re ridiculous with our petty judgments OF OURSELVES in this journey.

Say it with me:
I trust my desires.
I trust my longings.
I trust I am led in the perfect way with the perfect desires and longings.

I TRUST THEY ARE RIGHT.
I TRUST I AM RIGHT.
I TRUST GOD IS RIGHT.
I TRUST this process of trust.

I love you.
I know this takes heaps of courage… lucky for you… that’s no problem.

~ m

There is no such thing as leaving someone behind…as you step into your power and a new level

Jan 9, 2025 | Abundance mindset

This has always been one of my top resistances to thriving & big success.

And I find myself working through this fear again as I create this new life with Gregg and stepping back into my business.

I play the long game.
I’m not afraid to sit here in the mud for as long as I need to clear my pathway and launch.

I have thoughts that if I step back into my power I’ll leave him behind.
I’ll be “separate” from him… and maybe the relationship won’t work.

And I have to remind myself… there is no such thing. That is my EGO.

Mandy,
The VERY BEST thing you can do for everyone is to STEP FULLY into your power and create every magical thing you desire… BECAUSE:

1.You are responsible for your own alignment.
Your energy, Joy and purpose are sacred. They are your responsibility to cultivate and protect, and no one else can do that for you.

2.Your growth inspires others without forcing them. (Gregg forgive me for trying to force you sometimes to appease my fears) BLAH.
When you live fully in your power, you show others what is possible. It’s not your job to carry them (REPEAT… IT’S NOT YOUR JOB TO CARRY THEM… that’s an illusion of you appeasing your fears and trying to control the outcome)… it’s your job to SHINE and let them choose their own path.

3.You’re freeing yourself from limits:
Requiring others to keep up or align with your journey creates unnecessary resistance. By releasing that, you allow yourself to move at your own natural pace. (FLY baby FLYYYY) Most likely they will also fly better when you stop trying to get them to do it your way #ego. ❤

4.Your God magic expands when you’re unrestricted:
When you stop waiting for others to “catch up” (hello ego), you create limitless possibilities for yourself. You tap into your highest frequencies and consciousness and manifest with ease.

5.You deserve the life you dream of:
After all… God gave you that dream.
Your vision exists because it’s MEANT FOR YOU. You don’t need anyone else’s permission or PARTICIPATION to create it.

Say it with me:
It is already done. My power is absolute, my alignment is perfect, and my reality reflects the fullness of who I am. I no longer see myself as someone stepping into power – I AM power. It radiates through me effortlessly because this is who I have always been.

I feel no guilt, no hesitation, no second-guessing. I am anchored in the truth that I am fully aligned with God’s will, and my power is a reflection of His divine creation within me. I am not trying, striving, or working for it… it is already complete. I live it, breathe it, and walk in it now.

Every part of my life reflects the truth of my power. My health is radiant and vibrant. My relationships are lighthearted and uplifting. My wealth flows in limitless abundance. I am the woman who has it all, through His power and I feel the joy, ease, and peace that come with knowing it is already done.

I no longer carry guilt for leaving behind people or circumstances that are not aligned with this truth. I am not leaving anyone behind because my reality has already shifted. Those who are meant to thrive with me are rising effortlessly into this new reality. Those who are not aligned have already faded away, gently and lovingly, because they no longer fit into the frequency I embody.

I feel the fullness of my blessings in every moment. I don’t hope for miracles – they surround me. I don’t wait for abundance – it flows to me endlessly. I don’t wonder if I’m in alignment – I know it, deep in my being. My new reality is here, and I live it unapologetically, confidently, and joyfully.

There is no resistance, no doubt, no hesitation. The past is gone, the guilt is gone, the striving is gone. All that remains is the unshakable certainty that I AM already living as my highest self. This is not a process… it is a fact. It is done. It is mine.

I am no longer held back by what anyone else thinks, feels, or expects of me. I honor my own alignment, knowing that my power serves the highest good. I am not afraid of losing people, because I know everyone in my life now is here by divine design.

Every moment of my life feels expansive, free, and overflowing. I don’t chase, I don’t fear, I don’t question. I move through my days with the absolute certainty that I am fully supported, fully aligned, and fully living in the blessings God has already given me.

I AM power. I AM alignment. I AM the woman who creates miracles with her words, her energy, and her faith. It is already done. This is the only reality that exists. ORTE.

And so it is.
Amen.

Ego death & helping those you love

Oct 31, 2024 | Spiritual Growth

Recently I’ve been manifesting outgrowing the toxic parts of my ego… and man, I had no idea how incredibly liberating and painful that journey would be.

For those who have been following… you know I’ve been stuck on this for quite a couple of years now… “I did not come to teach you. I came to love you and love will teach you.”

Obviously, as an online teacher and coach that stopped me right in my tracks… and has been a never-ending source of description to the world I lived in…

Then I got feedback from the family that I press too hard.

Tough feedback.
And at first I felt like… “Well that’s just who I am… I push when it’s needed… I did make millions doing just that.” Only to FINALLY be able to recognize that THAT WAS the voice of my ego pushing for an identity.

I direct other’s growth.
It’s WHO I AM.

BAM. Busted.
Ego needs validation of value.
THAT is not who I AM. Not even almost.

So who would I be if I wasn’t the one directing other’s growth?
The one waking people up.
Bluntly & unceasingly confronting the insanity around me…

My ego mind shot back… “You’d be a self-absorbed, lazy nothing.” lol…

But my Soul said… “You’d be a woman honoring the greater plan.”

Damn…

I’m not the director of growth for those around me in my energy field… that’s just who I’ve chosen to identify as to be sure I am being someone who is valuable to others… when the truth is I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S BEST FOR ANYONE, only God does. Only them and their soul knows.

SO… then…. if my job is not to “teach and awaken” others… what am I here for?

GOLD!
I know every single time I reach the whole “WHAT’S THE POINT OF ANYTHING THEN” place… I’ve reached the end of my ego.

It’s a VERY uncomfortable place to be… walking on day 2 where you can see your unhealed, ego ways but can’t see how to be different yet. (I know you know what I mean)

Where you can see the stress you may have caused to your loved ones but don’t know how you could have done it any differently yet? Blah. Ya. That.

And if you don’t know what I mean… time to dig deep and tell a much deeper truth about what’s actually happening in your world… (but you already knew that).

So I cry.
I accept day 2 pain.
I thank God endlessly for showing me the truth and waking me up.
I put myself in other’s shoes and try to understand how I’ve missed the mark with them.
I get more feedback.
I cry. I thank Divine for endless Grace and forgiveness…

and I listen for the newness I’m being called into.

I watch for the shame and guilt that beckons me into its blackness… and do anything but go into it… watch TV, cry, walk, meditate, journal, cook… whatever… so long as I breathe through this part.

It doesn’t help anyone to be self-focused on my own failures.
And I remind myself it’s not a failure at all… how could it be?

OUR BEST IS ALWAYS ENOUGH.
Especially when that feels 0% true.

How can we expect to grow rapidly, awaken and realize all the ways we missed the mark if we judge ourselves for not having already known it every time we awaken!! That’s a broken system… and we will run in circles if we allow it.

Say it with me:
I trust the Divine wisdom in others to guide them on their path.
I release control and allow more and more peace and ease to flow through me into our home.
I hold space with love no matter what I think should happen… no matter how I think it should go, no matter when I think it should happen.
I honor my energy by releasing what I think I need to control and focusing on my inner guidance to be an example of trust.
I trust that true growth happens when I step back, allowing others to evolve in their own time and way.
I am a peaceful presence, holding space for growth and transformation, TRUSTING the DIVINE wisdom to lead others where they are meant to go.

I’m with you

mandy