Who Am I Around A Powerful Man Who Is Not In Control Of His Power?

July 31, 2023

As a woman, when a man is not in his power we can feel the wild energy…

Like a samurai blindfolded swinging his sword in a large crowd…

For any of us who have been hurt by a much stronger man… we feel fear; a look on his face, an energy, a way of moving, how he speaks…

I’ve dealt with this awareness my whole life and recently some old traumas have surfaced. I’ve gotten to see in slow motion what happens and what the PTSD flashbacks are and what the actual fears are…

So today I asked myself…
WHO am I with a man not in control of his power?
WHO do I choose to be?
HOW do I choose to be?

And it feels like such a powerful question. I instantly felt my power rising from within… able to hold space for untamed power that has so often knocked me to my knees…

I feel the more spacious ME trying to emerge…

When I am with a man who is not in control of his power… When he is anxious, having an anger outburst, turned on by you in an uncomfortable or inappropriate way… etc

I TAP DEEPLY INTO THE SOURCE & MY CORE. I hold the frequency of certainty and clarity. I speak from vulnerability and clarity. I tell the truth about how I feel, and I’m crystal clear how it is that it’s making me feel in my BODY, heart and soul.

I choose to see him in his greatness and hold this as the standard.

And most importantly I act in immediate obedience to my guidance. Walk away. Speak. No. This is my request….

I allow myself any space deeply desired.
I let go of the fears of what will happen when I speak up.
I let go of any guilt for requiring what I need to thrive.
I am fully present with myself and the energy I’m dealing with.
I am a force to be reckoned with, wrapped in love, patience and certainty.

Men grow around me.
They RISE.
They recognize.
They awaken.
They heal.
They release.
They LOVE big.
They devote.

They always treat me with gentleness and adoration… as they feel the connection to Source through me. I am a vessel for healing and awakening.

And they SEE, feel and understand their divinity, their immense POWER…

And in this moment they stop trying to hold back their power.
They release the fear of harming someone.
They release the terror of humiliation…

They stop trying to hold back and remove the blindfold, and unleash the samurai.

They feel safe to be POWERFUL around me and in the world. I am an activating force for their greatness.

I release my need for men to be weak for me to feel safe.
I release the need for men to be in perfect control of their power for me to feel safe.

I am now a woman who holds this powerful feminine space for his reclamation.

And so it is…..
And SO IT IS!!!!!!!

❤ Mandy x

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