It’s Easier To Start From The Beginning Than It Is To Look Back And Learn Our Lessons…
There was a time when the end of the year was all hype and goals, and I used to think that was how I was going to make sure I had the most AMAZING year of my life.
I created extraordinary things in my life, but I repeated a lot of the same mistakes and life felt pretty chaotic most of the time, even without a busy schedule. (I worked about 3 hours a day, weekdays.)
The Vision For Healing
We communicate powerfully and lovingly. We effortlessly navigate tough conversations and tough circumstances. We walked together hand in hand to get through ending the abuse of our lineage. When I bring things to his attention it's in my power, with grace and love.
Releasing The Story Of How It Supposed To Be
Back when I was escaping the crazy, I hyper-focused on work and made a million in 25 months from nothing… and it often feels tempting to hyper-focus again.
I moved, got divorced and got me and the kids into a safe space.
I thought… well, this is it.
Now I can just relax and enjoy life.
And for a year, that’s exactly what we did.
Little did I know… this is where the REAL work would begin.
We Get To Have A Life Of Growth And Bliss
We know we get to have the most magical life any human ever got to have.
We know we get to have the greatest love story of all time.
We know we get to heal and transmute all the harm that has happened before we met.
We know we get to heal our lineage. It’s us. We know.
It’s Been One Year
It’s been one year, today. This morning we sat and talked about everything that has transformed our first year together as we celebrate our first anniversary since the day we met…I feel butterflies everywhere writing this.
The Bell Story
There’s a story about this bell…I got it from my mother’s friend 23 years ago and have never once put it on a tree.
I was 19 and a newly single mother.
She told me…. “One day you will hang this on a tree with a man who loves you and makes you feel safe.”
I kept this bell year after year.
What To Do When You’re Being Messy AF…
I didn’t want to write any of this…
There’s a loud temptation to feel shame about this…
I’ve been getting triggered about other sexy women when I’m with Gregg.
Feeling anxious about losing him.
Feeling insecure about my body, that I’m not enough.
Embarrassed that I’m being SO MESSY right now in some areas.
Technology Parent Hacks
What I wish someone said to me:
If you don’t have the bandwidth to learn how to fully protect your kids on a technology device, do not give them access to one. Period.
I’m still heartbroken about what these kids are saying and doing to each other on their platforms (esp roblox & tictok). Not to mention the adults being kids on there as well, exposing them to wildly inappropriate things. And by wildly I do mean like… hard for my brain to even comprehend what is happening.
How It Really Looks On The Back End To Heal Myself…
(and my top 4 very direct tips for healing yourself)
I cut my finger through the nail with a knife.
Then my partner didn’t realize it was bad and went to the restroom.
Then I had a panic attack.
I was lying down hyperventilating and bawling.
It’s Easier To Start From The Beginning Than It Is To Look Back And Learn Our Lessons…
There was a time when the end of the year was all hype and goals, and I used to think that was how I was going to make sure I had the most AMAZING year of my life.
I created extraordinary things in my life, but I repeated a lot of the same mistakes and life felt pretty chaotic most of the time, even without a busy schedule. (I worked about 3 hours a day, weekdays.)
The Vision For Healing
We communicate powerfully and lovingly. We effortlessly navigate tough conversations and tough circumstances. We walked together hand in hand to get through ending the abuse of our lineage. When I bring things to his attention it's in my power, with grace and love.
Releasing The Story Of How It Supposed To Be
Back when I was escaping the crazy, I hyper-focused on work and made a million in 25 months from nothing… and it often feels tempting to hyper-focus again.
I moved, got divorced and got me and the kids into a safe space.
I thought… well, this is it.
Now I can just relax and enjoy life.
And for a year, that’s exactly what we did.
Little did I know… this is where the REAL work would begin.
We Get To Have A Life Of Growth And Bliss
We know we get to have the most magical life any human ever got to have.
We know we get to have the greatest love story of all time.
We know we get to heal and transmute all the harm that has happened before we met.
We know we get to heal our lineage. It’s us. We know.
It’s Been One Year
It’s been one year, today. This morning we sat and talked about everything that has transformed our first year together as we celebrate our first anniversary since the day we met…I feel butterflies everywhere writing this.
The Bell Story
There’s a story about this bell…I got it from my mother’s friend 23 years ago and have never once put it on a tree.
I was 19 and a newly single mother.
She told me…. “One day you will hang this on a tree with a man who loves you and makes you feel safe.”
I kept this bell year after year.
What To Do When You’re Being Messy AF…
I didn’t want to write any of this…
There’s a loud temptation to feel shame about this…
I’ve been getting triggered about other sexy women when I’m with Gregg.
Feeling anxious about losing him.
Feeling insecure about my body, that I’m not enough.
Embarrassed that I’m being SO MESSY right now in some areas.
Technology Parent Hacks
What I wish someone said to me:
If you don’t have the bandwidth to learn how to fully protect your kids on a technology device, do not give them access to one. Period.
I’m still heartbroken about what these kids are saying and doing to each other on their platforms (esp roblox & tictok). Not to mention the adults being kids on there as well, exposing them to wildly inappropriate things. And by wildly I do mean like… hard for my brain to even comprehend what is happening.
How It Really Looks On The Back End To Heal Myself…
(and my top 4 very direct tips for healing yourself)
I cut my finger through the nail with a knife.
Then my partner didn’t realize it was bad and went to the restroom.
Then I had a panic attack.
I was lying down hyperventilating and bawling.