Feel like you’re losing your feminine energy?

Maybe you didn’t lose it, maybe you’re finding a new authentic way to embody it…

In this culture and certainly in this industry… the ways we previously accessed our feminine energy were through high-intensity, external stimulation… through men who sparked something in us but never truly held us, through plant medicine communities that confused spiritual bypassing with real embodiment, and through trying to be desirable as a way of value… sexuality as the doorway to feminine energy.

And now, those doors are closed because we’ve outgrown them.

#theend

This is the part that feels disorienting… because our feminine remembers how it felt to be open, alive, desired, soft, surrendered… but we don’t yet have a new, safe, deeply rooted way to access it.

I definitely found my feminine energy this way… and so did the women around me.

Until I saw the effects of it:

*Until I watched a woman teaching feminine energy lie to cover their jealousy with zero vulnerability… using medicine to create a temporary, unsustainable frequency.
*Until the pain of the toxic cycles became greater than the reward.
*Until I looked at Bailey’s generation and saw how overly sexualized they had become around her…

So I walked away from it all and it was very confusing…
So this is what I remind myself…

You Are Not Losing Your Feminine… You Are Finding a New, Authentic Way to Embody It.

What’s happening is not that you’re “losing” yourself. It’s that your old pathways to feeling feminine were unsustainable, and now you’re being called into something deeper, truer, and more lasting.

You are detoxing from artificial feminine activation.

You are learning to awaken your femininity without it being dependent on toxic masculinity or external highs… and now even without healthy masculinity or ANY external thing.

You are rebuilding yourself in a way that cannot be shaken.

You are being called into a new depth of your feminine energy – one that is not dependent on a man doing it for you, a community, or an external medicine or force of any kind.

This is about you stepping into a feminine energy that is fully yours, fully safe, fully divine.

Journal questions:

  • What does it look like to be in my feminine on my own terms?
  • How can I embody this without needing an outside force to activate it?
  • What version of my feminine energy feels deeply true, deeply safe, and deeply ME?
  • You are not meant to go backward. You are meant to rise into something new.

Trust yourself, deeply. This found its way to you for a reason.
I’m with you. ❤️

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