Feeling unworthy and insignificant to God…

I have felt profound unworthiness every time I tried to feel God’s presence… and sit in meditation…

And to my surprise… I realized that UNWORTHINESS is nothing but ego.

It is simply more self-focus.
“I’m this. I did this. I didn’t accomplish that.” Yada yadda.

And each time I remind myself of this quote: “Instead of focusing on our flaws… focus on God’s Love.”

It’s simply the habit of focusing on ourselves instead of God.
As usual lol. #human

And this is the essential work of awakening/ salvation/ enlightenment…

To remember the illusion of maya.
The lie that we are separate from God…
The very real awful habit of focusing solely on our human experience and forgetting who we are.
WHAT we are.

Say it with me:
I focus solely on God’s love for all, and that includes me.
When I forget what I am, I instantly remember.
When unworthiness and self-hate start to creep up… I refocus on God and his grace.

I am nature, I was created by the word of God… just like the stars, the ocean and the birds… I am part of all the magic that exists. I am not separate.

I release the need to try to prove my worthiness and pacify my ego. I do not need to feel worthy to KNOW what I AM.

I accept the feelings and allow them to pass through me and transmute into love.

It is no problem because I REMEMBER that I am one with God, and God is pure bliss, Joy and LOVE.

Nothing else exists. ❤

With all my love,
Mandy

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Feel like you’re losing your feminine energy?

Maybe you didn’t lose it, maybe you’re finding a new authentic way to embody it…
In this culture and certainly in this industry… the ways we previously accessed our feminine energy were through high-intensity, external stimulation… through men who sparked something in us but never truly held us, through plant medicine communities that confused spiritual bypassing with real embodiment, and through trying to be desirable as a way of value… sexuality as the doorway to feminine energy.

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What to do if it feels like meditation is a waste of time?

(What I learned from Mooji)
Meditation was ALWAYS a huge struggle for me.
Even now that I literally never have to work again if I don’t want to… I still feel a voice in me telling me I’m wasting time if I just be present with God in meditation.
This is VERY normal, lol. It is our brain’s job to just keep feeding thoughts… that ultimately distract us from our true self. It’s just not a problem.
Mooji said it brilliantly, “This ‘seemingly passive’ action generates tremendous power.”

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Don’t have time for God?

Imagine if when we feel financial stress…
When our kids have some suffering going on…
When we are overwhelmed or exhausted…
When we don’t know what to do…
Instead of numbing out on social.
Instead of overeating or drinking…
Instead of nagging and criticizing…
Instead of shutting down or taking frantic action…

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THRIVING never takes away from your kids, health or romantic partner…

(you know it’s true that thriving never takes away from your kids, health or romantic partner, yet you are not experiencing it… why?)
I was taught this as I scaled my wealth and business… only I WASN’T fully experiencing it ongoing… and of course it did take away from these things…
But….. IT IS ACTUALLY true… Thriving DOES NOT take away from our health, wealth or time… so why was it still feeling like not every need was being met while I took the time, resource and space I needed to thrive?

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Protecting through self-sabotage in health????

This morning I prayed for restoration in my health… and full exposing of all holding me back. I declared it as I woke up in pain from sitting yesterday creating all day.
I felt an even deeper birth of knowing that my words hold all the power needed to heal. Deeper and deeper we go into God’s power.
And just like that within the hour – all of a sudden I could see the mischief playing out. From the sexual assaults in my life to being drowned in the tub and men being obsessed with me… to being told harm should come to me so I would lose weight… full circle trauma.

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“If I don’t do it, no one will…”

No one else knows how to do it as good as you, as quickly and effectively as you… right?
So you always have to do it yourself… and there’s just not enough time in a day…
Oh my gosh! Even just saying these old words gives me a stomach ache… but I remember OH SO CLEARLY when life felt this way.
It’s all TOTAL CRAP.
And if you don’t have the courage to face that… it won’t change.

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