The illusion of “I’m going to change the world…”
There is a moment in every soul’s awakening where she realizes the pressure she’s been carrying – “I’m going to change the world…” was never the truth.
It was EFFORT disguised as destiny.
It was ego imitating the soul.
The pressure feels like a calling.
It feels noble.
It feels activating…
But underneath it is the panic of someone who still believes the world is broken, that people need saving.
It is the illusion of a self who still thinks she is the one who must MOVE REALITY.
But the soul doesn’t declare “I will change the world.”
The soul remembers that the world is already changed by the Light, in its most perfect Divine timing… without needing her PERFORMANCE.
The ego declares.
The soul unveils.
And there is an immense pressure that comes with this illusion that anything depends on you.
It is the background feeling of pressure… believing the Light relies on your performance.
Finding the words, over-explaining, performing to try to accomplish it all… confusing effort with destiny…
And this goes on for a lifetime… until, one day you are so burned out, so drained that you finally surrender… you finally have to face this delusion that it all depends on you.
And when this illusion breaks, it feels like breathing for the first time… like suddenly you are not pulling an entire planet behind you…
It’s humbling and humiliating in the most perfect way, realizing you were only ever interfering lol.
That no one can ever awaken because you tried to make them… because you worked harder and shouted louder…
That no one ever truly healed because you decided to be the rescuer of the world…
That every time you try to change someone, all you are saying is:
“I haven’t learned to trust yet…”
That every frustration is our soul’s way of asking to trust more deeply.
And you let go of the savior complex.
You remember that the same magical force that raises the sun every morning, that feeds the birds and grows the flowers… the same timeline that ALL OF EXISTENCE runs on… runs all those you thought you were here to change. The WORLD you thought you were here to change.
And you finally let the pressure, the illusion, and the egos need to be the changer… go…
And…
Love becomes effortless… the kind that SEES and allows.
The kind that trusts the unfolding.
YOU REALIZE THERE WAS NEVER ANYTHING TO FIX, ONLY SOMETHING TO SEE.
And as you watch you realize that the peace you searched for was never at the end of effort, it was always flowing beneath it.
LOVE without aim.
Care without control.
You watch the world move, and your BEING becomes transparent enough to allow the Light to do its work.
And you see… in awe and wonder… its magnificence…
and you giggle… remembering the you who was ready to “change the world”…
exhale…….
m.
