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Neater. More linear. Less messy.

Sep 11, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I’ve always wished that I could be more graceful in my journey…

Neater. More linear. Less messy.
Less drastic changes.

And sometimes I really feel like something is wrong with me when I see my peers being the same. Same. Same. 10 years later… the same.

And… through this I’ve come to embrace the craziness as I realize that it is this way because I outgrow myself 100x a year.
Like most of you, I come from a long line of trauma.

So … did we think it was just magically going to look all neat? Lol

Did we think that breaking lineal habits and imprintings was going to go smoothly?

Did we think we would be without BIG challenges?

Did we think we would understand it all every time we find ourselves on a whole, entire, new planet? Lol

Did we think we would intellect our way out of it all? Learn enough to finally understand it all?

Did we think that it would look like the person next to us?

Did we think that we would feel good comparing ourselves to the people around us when YOU ARE THE ONE breaking the mold?

Silly.
Lol

No.
If it is happening it is God’s will. We know… Because… it is happening lol

And learning more, more moreeee is not going to change any of this…

OUR WORK IS TO ALLOW THE SOUL TO BE GUIDED EVEN WHEN THE INTELLECT IS IN THE DARKNESS…

To calm the mind and experience God rather than understand God.

To let go.
To tell ourselves the whole truth as deeply as we can every step of the way.

TO AIM at connection with the Divine… and relentlessly pursue oneness… so we can be soothed, carried and activated in the light… rather than needing to pull from those around us.

And no matter how messy or painful, how scary or unfamiliar…. WE don’t ever change our aim.

No matter how joyful, how epic and abundant… we don’t change our aim toward our creator.

“If you only knew how much God loves you, you would cry tears of joy for the rest of your life.”

❤ Let’s do that.

#morningLOVErant

Aug 27, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I can’t believe I get to do this whole human thing…
I mean… what were the chances I’d be able to be born a human and do this?????

What an incredible gift!
I’m so blessed that I can’t even begin to comprehend it…

I choose to feel God’s love pouring through my veins.
I choose to feel the UNENDINGNESS of the LOVE… the countless ways I am loved… the extraordinary possibility of drawing nearer to this LOVE… ahhhh!

I see my children in their greatness and imagine God’s love and protection in and around every cell in their body.

I see my parents well and their souls soothed. I see all the possibility that lies before them.

I feel rest in my soul.
I feel ease in my steps.
I feel power in my words.
I feel awe and wonder at every live creature…

and I feel my soul’s yearning for oneness being fulfilled.

I feel the closeness of this force of love & I tap into it effortlessly.

I feel the oneness and it overwhelms me with awe.
I feel the vastness of this galaxy and I feel my energy expand to the farthest reaches of it all.

I feel grounded.
I feel stable.
I feel willfully led to the greatest good of all.

I love who I am.
I feel grateful to be ME.
I feel grateful for who I am becoming.

I love life.
I love doing life as me.
I love doing life with the people in my life.
I love doing life with God!

I remember what matters.
My priorities are in order.
I effortlessly release all that doesn’t belong.
But of course… how could I not?

I let go of the need to understand it all and act in faith.
I release all ties that I’ve outgrown… all behaviors that cannot come with me.

I breathe joyfully through any pain and tension that comes along and easily remember that it is just a sensation in my body and doesn’t mean anything at all.

I love this life!!
I love this journey… and all that comes with it.

Today I choose to enjoy this gift to its fullest no matter what sensations and thoughts come my way…

Today I choose to act in alignment with my highest self regardless of the pull to habitual behavior.

Today I let it be easy.
Today I let go of any story that it’s hard lol.

Today is the best day of my whole lifeeeeeeee!!
And so it is.

Can we be peaceful without being walked all over?

Aug 17, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I’ve come to fully understand that
PEACE is the goal….

But we MUST define true peace… the kind of peace Jesus called us to in Christ’s consciousness.

Peace is not agreeableness.
Peace is not passivity.
Peace is not leaving things undisturbed…
…

Peace is an ACTIVE state of alignment with higher truths and the Divine will… and oftentimes requires a shaking up to allow for this.

Peace involves the courage to stand up against injustice, lies, and harm… not through violence or manipulation… but through the power of love and authenticity.

And we must be able to CREATE the peace we need in our own lives in order to awaken….

Then, in this peace, we can begin to align more deeply with the Divine.

And we call this purification.
It is a thunderstorm.

This transformation is described as a process of purification, where the soul is cleansed of egoic attachments, illusions, and desires, allowing it to become more aligned with the Divine… and lower energies are confronted and removed in our life… from addictive habits to toxic energies, beliefs, and humans.

Jesus, as Christ’s Consciousness, acted as a catalyst for this purification when he flipped the tables in his righteous anger. The Pharisees (representing dogma and hypocrisy) and the merchants in the temple (symbolizing materialism and greed) were obstacles to spiritual purity and truth. By confronting these elements, Jesus was clearing the way for higher spiritual awareness and integrity.

THIS IS REQUIRED FOR PEACE.

The peacemaker, then, is not one who avoids conflict at all costs but one who acts in alignment with the Divine will to even if that means confronting and breaking apart what is false or misaligned. Jesus’ actions were an expression of Divine justice, which is a vital aspect of true peace.

We can apply this to toxic abusive people running rampant in our lives… boundaries and speaking up about your experience or telling the truth about what happening is a must.

We can apply this to the illusion of happiness being in the endless chase of more money… IG life is an illusion of someone’s best moments being a meaningful life.

We can apply this to getting drunk or running to plant medicine for every answer.

We can apply this to anything causing chaos or impeding us from direct connection to the Source itself.

And if there is a part of us saying “No… I just want to be the one everyone likes… I don’t want to create waves…” then we have found the codependency in us.

Dark night of the Soul

Aug 17, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

… where you feel disconnected, lost, and unsure of your path… a time when old beliefs and ways of being fall away, but the new hasn’t fully emerged yet…

My old friend lol.

This sacred space is so challenging… I fully understand why most of humanity avoids it… numbs it and stays attached so deeply to their current sets of beliefs…

Because when you let them go there is an unavoidable VOID that we find it almost unbearable to sit in.

The boss babe life… have it all life… manifest your every dream life… plant medicine for all the answers life… it’s beautiful… and it has its place in the journey of healing and awakening.

It’s fun lol.
And it’s so important we understand our own power as a soul in this human life. This phase awakens this very well.

Some people choose to live here and go no further making this the way of life. Others choose the path of the bodhisattva… Sanskrit for “a being who is on the way to becoming enlightened” and continue on taking the parts that serve them and leaving the rest behind.

And I’ve known since very young what I was called here to do… I never knew how, but I always knew who I was called to BE…

And even though a big part of me just wants to run back to it and have more fun… you really can’t, can you? Once you see the next level of you, you can’t go back.

You just can’t. (I know you know what I’m saying here…)

You can numb and procrastinate.
You can stay in an altered state so it’s all a bit fuzzy.
You can blame everyone around you…
You can self destruct…

But you can’t go back and have it feel blissfully ignorant like it used to. lol

And this void… we call the dark night of the soul.

As I move through the darkness alongside you… I want to remind us that the SUN ALWAYS RISES!! And the sun has not gone anywhere… we have simply lost orientation for a moment.

And from all of the times I find myself here in the void with nothing to cling to anymore… I’ve learned that the fastest way of moving through it is to FULLY surrender to the process. This means letting go of the need to have all the answers right now and trusting that this period of uncertainty is leading us to a more profound understanding of ourselves and our purpose. It’s about allowing ourselves to be remade, even if that feels uncomfortable or disorienting.

Even if it feels like dying… we simply let the fire (discomfort, pain and confusion of the void) burn off all that doesn’t belong… All that can’t come with you to your next level.

We let it all die. And we give birth to the new.

The world I choose for today is to surrender all thoughts and tensions telling me something is wrong… something different needs to be… or that I’m wrong for being in the void.

Truly it’s an honor.
We did a LOT RIGHT to be able to be in this void.
We CHOOSE to grow. Complacency doesn’t get people into the void.

I used to order how so many of my peers have the SAME message for 10 years never needing to do an overhaul on their brand and messages… and then I realized that this level of rapid growth was one of my gifts.

And I’ve learned that it is a huge honor to be given the chance to awaken so profoundly again and again.

So while the void can be VERY disorienting… we trust our guide within. We trust the small still voice.
We trust the process.
We let go of silly little human notions of how it’s all supposed to be.

I LET GO.
I LET GO.
I LET GO.
Fully and completely.
I remember who is in charge of all of existence and where it’s all headed and I laugh feeling so silly and ridiculous for trying to think I know how it should be. LOL

I allow the lightness into my void through surrender. Through trust.

I let my faith build.
I continue to let go and let my will align with Source.
I feel gratitude that I get to be in this void, yet again… allowing God’s will to birth through me.

I mean… does it actually get any more exciting and incredible than that?

Who needs to KNOW it all when we get to be part of that!

I have absolutely no clue where this is leading me. And there is a great battle within between the part of me who wants to HAVE IT ALL and the part of me aligning to God’s divine plan without trying to appease my body’s need for comfort… pleasure seeking and pain avoiding… and my mind’s desperate need to KNOW… with all it’s thought patterns and preferences…

But I choose to allow this death and rebirth…
I choose to let go.
I choose to surrender to the process.
I choose to let go of anything I thought I knew about what should and shouldn’t be and hear with the very best of me… what the Divine plan is for my life.

No rules.
No attachments.
And I will pray unceasingly that the fires burn hot to dissolve all that is holding me back…

Say it with me:

I surrender to this void,
Trusting it leads me to Your truth.
Refine me, align me, and let the fires burn effectively,
So I may emerge in Your will.

And so it is.
Amen.