The Upgrade Hurts

The pain of the UPGRADE…

I feel the thousands of humans all over the world are sitting in bedrooms, saunas, coffee shops, and back porches… 

with tears in their eyes and pressure in their chest…

because something they used to survive with no longer fits the soul they’ve become.

They’re waking up in the subtle, aching way … the … I can’t do it that way anymore…. awakening.

Truth-tellers who are realizing that bluntly saying the truth isn’t the same as embodying it.

Powerful souls who are realizing that forcing outcomes isn’t the same as bending reality with their peace.

It’s big. It’s so beautiful… and so messy. 

We’re messy. And that’s ok. 

The embarrassment of seeing our mess is just the ego dying. We welcome it.

These epic humans will die to the old identity so they can rise in the light of the new one.

They do the work even when no one knows the pain and strength it takes. 

And here you are… one of them.

You’re not just going through the awakening.

You’re helping hold the field for it.

You’re one of the way-makers who walk it first so others can walk it easier.

And while it might feel like no one understands…

just know that across oceans and timelines…

you’re being felt.

And silently…

we’re walking with you.

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She was trying to cope with the pain she saw all around her

She never over-functioned to be liked.
She never stepped in to be chosen.
She never carried weight to avoid being left.

Her body was trained for something far sharper:
Prevent disaster.
Prevent collapse.
Prevent irreversible harm.
Prevent the kind of pain that destroys lives beyond repair.

Her over-functioning was not people-pleasing.
It was protection.
It was vigilance.

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When wildly successful mentors don’t resonate…

She kept hearing the same thing from everyone…
This teacher, that teacher changed my life.
This program made me millions.
This work is everything.

But every time she listened, something in her body said no.
The teachings felt flat.
Monotonous.
Predictable.
Dry in a way that made her feel annoyed, sometimes even angry, like she was wasting her time…

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Why manifestation feels Self-Absorbed… (and how to immediately shift it)

There is something off about the energetics of manifestation in our current culture… When we slow down enough… we sense a nudge that there is something self-absorbed about hyper focusing on how we feel… on our VIBE. There is something subtly narcissistic about it… something that gives us pause… and we just call it “money limitations”.
It sounds like:
I AM
I AM THE ONE.
…the one who manifests, who vibes, who attracts…
I AM the frequency… my desires are forefront…

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It’s all ridiculous

It’s honestly hilarious how seriously we take our own evolution.
Soooo you took 4 years to learn a single lesson that knocked your business sideways?
So… you still trip over the same pattern?
You still procrastinate on the exact thing you swore you’d do last season?
… and the Infinite is not even blinking.
This entire lifetime is one tiny blip.
A spark.
A micro-moment in a long, long journey of becoming.

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