Wealth desires & God desires: what’s the truth behind it all?

Are our desires ego-driven shallowness????
Are they God’s guidance?
Am I meant to be led by them? To deny them????

HERE IS THE MAGIC I’VE COME TO UNDERSTAND ABOUT THEM…

“I trust my desires are right.”
We begin here. RIGHT HERE is where this adventure begins.

And I do… I truly trust my desires are RIGHT desires now… and it’s like a 1000 lb weight lifted off of me.

But of course God would activate a desire in me. What a perfectly brilliant way to communicate to us. No? What else would a loving Source itself use but the joy of the life force of desire to activate us humans?

But when I look back at some of my desires like looks and Chanel bags and other silly things… I question if I was off base with God’s will?

How could that be in alignment with God’s will? Shouldn’t I question my desires? Aren’t these some self-absorbed, superficial desires? Didn’t it mean I needed validation to some degree somewhere inside? Isn’t that OFF?

No. Not even close.
My desires were never wrong… I simply have outgrown myself again and again and again until old desires feel silly.

They weren’t silly at the time… they were PERFECT.
How do I know they were perfect?
Because they got me to the place where that part of my ego died and I no longer had any attachment to them… which then opened space to LOVE & serve even more.

I will never question my deep soul’s longings again. Never.
I will stop looking back feeling like I should have been THEN… the way I desire to be NOW.

How absurd.
As if we are all supposed to be in the exact same place of our journey all desiring the same thing. Lol

That’s literal nonsense.
It’s absurd even.

We sit around waiting for proof it’s what God wants us to do… yet the inkling to do so IS the answer. The desire to experience it IS the answer.

It’s already perfect.
And it doesn’t have to make sense to some arbitrary standard someone else in a different place has set.
Some societal standard.

If I had followed the societal standard of not caring about wealth and all the wealthy things… I’d NEVER have had the chance to outgrow the validation I needed to let go of the “welfare” Mandy.

I’d still feel like that stuff would make me more valuable. Buying $20k worth of Chanel bags was invaluable because they became as important to me as my favorite Walmart backpack.

That desire was EXACTLY perfect as only the Source of all life could know…

So we drop all absurd judgment of ourselves and others.

We stay out of the sacred place between a soul and its maker and we get still and hear our own deep yearnings, longings and promptings….
Superficial things awaken people all the time.
Deep powerful soul shifts knock people out of the game all the time.

We’re ridiculous with our petty judgments OF OURSELVES in this journey.

Say it with me:
I trust my desires.
I trust my longings.
I trust I am led in the perfect way with the perfect desires and longings.

I TRUST THEY ARE RIGHT.
I TRUST I AM RIGHT.
I TRUST GOD IS RIGHT.
I TRUST this process of trust.

I love you.
I know this takes heaps of courage… lucky for you… that’s no problem.

~ m

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