Feeling unworthy and insignificant to God…

I have felt profound unworthiness every time I tried to feel God’s presence… and sit in meditation…

And to my surprise… I realized that UNWORTHINESS is nothing but ego.

It is simply more self-focus.
“I’m this. I did this. I didn’t accomplish that.” Yada yadda.

And each time I remind myself of this quote: “Instead of focusing on our flaws… focus on God’s Love.”

It’s simply the habit of focusing on ourselves instead of God.
As usual lol. #human

And this is the essential work of awakening/ salvation/ enlightenment…

To remember the illusion of maya.
The lie that we are separate from God…
The very real awful habit of focusing solely on our human experience and forgetting who we are.
WHAT we are.

Say it with me:
I focus solely on God’s love for all, and that includes me.
When I forget what I am, I instantly remember.
When unworthiness and self-hate start to creep up… I refocus on God and his grace.

I am nature, I was created by the word of God… just like the stars, the ocean and the birds… I am part of all the magic that exists. I am not separate.

I release the need to try to prove my worthiness and pacify my ego. I do not need to feel worthy to KNOW what I AM.

I accept the feelings and allow them to pass through me and transmute into love.

It is no problem because I REMEMBER that I am one with God, and God is pure bliss, Joy and LOVE.

Nothing else exists. ❤

With all my love,
Mandy

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… and learning to allow myself to have BOTH, that and my own wealth…
So… I always held the frequency that I always make more money. The end… and so I did.
I held the frequency that I make it rapidly. Like makes-no-sense rapidly. And so I did. I went from my first month coaching making $4k to $40k the next month. I never did $10k months.

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Letting go of the chase for awakening

I’ve recently had the most unnerving realization.
It’s one I’ve never ever heard anyone speak of… and it’s been a very strange feeling to navigate.
Through some extreme circumstances… I had 2 major spiritual awakenings. I didn’t know what was happening at the time but there is nothing else I know to call it but that.
And in these awakenings, I was also led to a spiritual practice that just keeps the floodgates open. I really could see the pathway to awakening.

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6 insights to aligning MY will with GOD’S will…

Most of the time what I feel God is asking me to do feels ridiculous…
It’s just true.
My learned brain knows everything (according to itself lol) and always knows what’s best… except… that is of course, the complete ridiculousness when I stay conscious.
Quit this job and start your own business… come again? (I was a nanny)
Launch this course about power… (say what?)
Hire this coach who drives you insane… (really though?)
Stop. (what? Now? You realize how hard I worked to get here ya)
Be still. (Oh comeeee onnnnnnnn #adhd lol)

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Ego death & helping those you love

Recently I’ve been manifesting outgrowing the toxic parts of my ego… and man, I had no idea how incredibly liberating and painful that journey would be.
For those who have been following… you know I’ve been stuck on this quite for a of couple years now… “I did not come to teach you. I came to love you and love will teach you.”
Obviously as an online teacher and coach that stopped me right in my tracks… and has been a never-ending source of description to the world I lived in…
Then I got feedback from the family that I press too hard.

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Showing up from a place of LOVE

I thought I knew what showing up from a place of LOVE meant…
I thought I was doing it…
I thought that I was operating from a place of big LOVE.
I showed up every day of my life for 7 years giving everything I had to rescue those I love…
To have the money & power to help everyone in my world…

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Neater. More linear. Less messy.

I’ve always wished that I could be more graceful in my journey…
Neater. More linear. Less messy.
Less drastic changes.
And sometimes I really feel like something is wrong with me when I see my peers being the same. Same. Same. 10 years later… the same.
And… through this I’ve come to embrace the craziness as I realize that it is this way because I outgrow myself 100x a year.
Like most of you, I come from a long line of trauma.

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