Spiritual Growth Blogs

I’ve recently had the most unnerving realization.
It’s one I’ve never ever heard anyone speak of… and it’s been a very strange feeling to navigate.
Through some extreme circumstances… I had 2 major spiritual awakenings. I didn’t know what was happening at the time but there is nothing else I know to call it but that.
And in these awakenings, I was also led to a spiritual practice that just keeps the floodgates open. I really could see the pathway to awakening.

Most of the time what I feel God is asking me to do feels ridiculous…
It’s just true.
My learned brain knows everything (according to itself lol) and always knows what’s best… except… that is of course, the complete ridiculousness when I stay conscious.
Quit this job and start your own business… come again? (I was a nanny)
Launch this course about power… (say what?)
Hire this coach who drives you insane… (really though?)
Stop. (what? Now? You realize how hard I worked to get here ya)
Be still. (Oh comeeee onnnnnnnn #adhd lol)

Recently I’ve been manifesting outgrowing the toxic parts of my ego… and man, I had no idea how incredibly liberating and painful that journey would be.
For those who have been following… you know I’ve been stuck on this quite for a of couple years now… “I did not come to teach you. I came to love you and love will teach you.”
Obviously as an online teacher and coach that stopped me right in my tracks… and has been a never-ending source of description to the world I lived in…
Then I got feedback from the family that I press too hard.