Spiritual Growth Blogs

Most of the time what I feel God is asking me to do feels ridiculous…
It’s just true.
My learned brain knows everything (according to itself lol) and always knows what’s best… except… that is of course, the complete ridiculousness when I stay conscious.
Quit this job and start your own business… come again? (I was a nanny)
Launch this course about power… (say what?)
Hire this coach who drives you insane… (really though?)
Stop. (what? Now? You realize how hard I worked to get here ya)
Be still. (Oh comeeee onnnnnnnn #adhd lol)

Recently I’ve been manifesting outgrowing the toxic parts of my ego… and man, I had no idea how incredibly liberating and painful that journey would be.
For those who have been following… you know I’ve been stuck on this quite for a of couple years now… “I did not come to teach you. I came to love you and love will teach you.”
Obviously as an online teacher and coach that stopped me right in my tracks… and has been a never-ending source of description to the world I lived in…
Then I got feedback from the family that I press too hard.

I have felt profound unworthiness every time I tried to feel God’s presence… and sit in meditation…
And to my surprise… I realized that UNWORTHINESS is nothing but ego.
It is simply more self-focus.
“I’m this. I did this. I didn’t accomplish that.” Yada yadda.
And each time I remind myself of this quote: “Instead of focusing on our flaws… focus on God’s Love.”