Feeling unworthy and insignificant to God…

Sep 11, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I have felt profound unworthiness every time I tried to feel God’s presence… and sit in meditation…

And to my surprise… I realized that UNWORTHINESS is nothing but ego.

It is simply more self-focus.
“I’m this. I did this. I didn’t accomplish that.” Yada yadda.

And each time I remind myself of this quote: “Instead of focusing on our flaws… focus on God’s Love.”

It’s simply the habit of focusing on ourselves instead of God.
As usual lol. #human

And this is the essential work of awakening/ salvation/ enlightenment…

To remember the illusion of maya.
The lie that we are separate from God…
The very real awful habit of focusing solely on our human experience and forgetting who we are.
WHAT we are.

Say it with me:
I focus solely on God’s love for all, and that includes me.
When I forget what I am, I instantly remember.
When unworthiness and self-hate start to creep up… I refocus on God and his grace.

I am nature, I was created by the word of God… just like the stars, the ocean and the birds… I am part of all the magic that exists. I am not separate.

I release the need to try to prove my worthiness and pacify my ego. I do not need to feel worthy to KNOW what I AM.

I accept the feelings and allow them to pass through me and transmute into love.

It is no problem because I REMEMBER that I am one with God, and God is pure bliss, Joy and LOVE.

Nothing else exists. ❤

With all my love,
Mandy

Neater. More linear. Less messy.

Neater. More linear. Less messy.

Sep 11, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I’ve always wished that I could be more graceful in my journey…

Neater. More linear. Less messy.
Less drastic changes.

And sometimes I really feel like something is wrong with me when I see my peers being the same. Same. Same. 10 years later… the same.

And… through this I’ve come to embrace the craziness as I realize that it is this way because I outgrow myself 100x a year.
Like most of you, I come from a long line of trauma.

So … did we think it was just magically going to look all neat? Lol

Did we think that breaking lineal habits and imprintings was going to go smoothly?

Did we think we would be without BIG challenges?

Did we think we would understand it all every time we find ourselves on a whole, entire, new planet? Lol

Did we think we would intellect our way out of it all? Learn enough to finally understand it all?

Did we think that it would look like the person next to us?

Did we think that we would feel good comparing ourselves to the people around us when YOU ARE THE ONE breaking the mold?

Silly.
Lol

No.
If it is happening it is God’s will. We know… Because… it is happening lol

And learning more, more moreeee is not going to change any of this…

OUR WORK IS TO ALLOW THE SOUL TO BE GUIDED EVEN WHEN THE INTELLECT IS IN THE DARKNESS…

To calm the mind and experience God rather than understand God.

To let go.
To tell ourselves the whole truth as deeply as we can every step of the way.

TO AIM at connection with the Divine… and relentlessly pursue oneness… so we can be soothed, carried and activated in the light… rather than needing to pull from those around us.

And no matter how messy or painful, how scary or unfamiliar…. WE don’t ever change our aim.

No matter how joyful, how epic and abundant… we don’t change our aim toward our creator.

“If you only knew how much God loves you, you would cry tears of joy for the rest of your life.”

❤ Let’s do that.

#morningLOVErant

#morningLOVErant

Aug 27, 2024 | Spiritual Awakening

I can’t believe I get to do this whole human thing…
I mean… what were the chances I’d be able to be born a human and do this?????

What an incredible gift!
I’m so blessed that I can’t even begin to comprehend it…

I choose to feel God’s love pouring through my veins.
I choose to feel the UNENDINGNESS of the LOVE… the countless ways I am loved… the extraordinary possibility of drawing nearer to this LOVE… ahhhh!

I see my children in their greatness and imagine God’s love and protection in and around every cell in their body.

I see my parents well and their souls soothed. I see all the possibility that lies before them.

I feel rest in my soul.
I feel ease in my steps.
I feel power in my words.
I feel awe and wonder at every live creature…

and I feel my soul’s yearning for oneness being fulfilled.

I feel the closeness of this force of love & I tap into it effortlessly.

I feel the oneness and it overwhelms me with awe.
I feel the vastness of this galaxy and I feel my energy expand to the farthest reaches of it all.

I feel grounded.
I feel stable.
I feel willfully led to the greatest good of all.

I love who I am.
I feel grateful to be ME.
I feel grateful for who I am becoming.

I love life.
I love doing life as me.
I love doing life with the people in my life.
I love doing life with God!

I remember what matters.
My priorities are in order.
I effortlessly release all that doesn’t belong.
But of course… how could I not?

I let go of the need to understand it all and act in faith.
I release all ties that I’ve outgrown… all behaviors that cannot come with me.

I breathe joyfully through any pain and tension that comes along and easily remember that it is just a sensation in my body and doesn’t mean anything at all.

I love this life!!
I love this journey… and all that comes with it.

Today I choose to enjoy this gift to its fullest no matter what sensations and thoughts come my way…

Today I choose to act in alignment with my highest self regardless of the pull to habitual behavior.

Today I let it be easy.
Today I let go of any story that it’s hard lol.

Today is the best day of my whole lifeeeeeeee!!
And so it is.