What to do if it feels like meditation is a waste of time?

What to do if it feels like meditation is a waste of time?

(What I learned from Mooji)

Meditation was ALWAYS a huge struggle for me.

Even now that I literally never have to work again if I don’t want to… I still feel a voice in me telling me I’m wasting time if I just be present with God in meditation.

This is VERY normal, lol. It is our brain’s job to just keep feeding thoughts… that ultimately distract us from our true self. It’s just not a problem.

Mooji said it brilliantly, “This ‘seemingly passive’ action generates tremendous power.”

He was referring to putting everything down. Your past, your questions, your needs, desires and fidgeting… and simply BE.
In this being… we are one with the God frequency… and we just BE with it… and eventually AS it.

“This ‘seemingly passive’ action generates tremendous power.”
This phrase has really helped me in my journey… the powerful fruits it bears are peace, JOY, love, harmony, wisdom… abundance…

“Just from sitting there Mandy?”
Well yes… but we aren’t just sitting there like when we watch tv… we are actively IDENTIFYING as the God frequency… which begins with letting EVERYTHING go.

And as we sit there AS AWARENESS… we become very conscious of the never-ending demands and distractions of the mind and body. Good lord. Sometimes I just tweak out like I am the brain and just rant 100 different demands 100 miles an hour just to acknowledge to myself that IT IS INSANE and that THAT CAN’T BE IT hahahahaha.

It gives me the courage to let go… of all of it.
My past, my ideas, my needs, my sense of time… my “How do I do this” feelings…

I let it ALL GO.
My brain then feeds… How How How?
And I laugh and recognize it. There’s Ego trying to stay alive and distract you from your POWER.

Your God frequency where ego can’t live.
So every time I can see it I feel waves of gratitude that I CAN SEE IT!
It’s a good thing! I’m awakening!
And then when I am done my brain shouts… Now what? Now what? Now what? LOL

To which I recognize is Ego, yet again. And I breathe… let it all go and keep walking.
…and that very part of us right now that goes… ya but then what??

That’s it. Right there lol. THAT’S EGO.

That’s what pulls us away from our true power.

#Egoisbusted

Our true power lies in everything that is BEYOND that ranting.
And there is only ONE way to experience it. lol.
I love you!

I claim right now with you that our awareness of our true God frequency self is illuminated through grace in the perfect way!!

Don’t have time for God?

Don’t have time for God?

Imagine if when we feel financial stress…
When our kids have some suffering going on…
When we are overwhelmed or exhausted…
When we don’t know what to do…

Instead of numbing out on social.
Instead of overeating or drinking…
Instead of nagging and criticizing…
Instead of shutting down or taking frantic action…

WE SIMPLY sat still with God and let infinite Source pour out its endless love?

It’s a thing.
We all know it’s a thing.
We have all felt God’s LOVE.
We all know that it doesn’t ever leave… it’s endless… and it’s unconditional.

We know that God’s will is for us to PROSPER. For us to overflow with joy, health, wealth, freedom and love…
We know that the only way to BE a frequency is to calibrate to it. Which means exposure is required.
We know that every enlightened being that has ever been recorded in history teaching… has told us we must embrace stillness to connect with God.
We know that miracles happen when we change frequencies.

Yet we have a story that it is a waste of time. LOLOLOL
… I think that is all.

THRIVING never takes away from your kids, health or romantic partner…

THRIVING never takes away from your kids, health or romantic partner…

(you know it’s true that thriving never takes away from your kids, health or romantic partner, yet you are not experiencing it… why?)

I was taught this as I scaled my wealth and business… only I WASN’T fully experiencing it ongoing… and of course it did take away from these things…

But….. IT IS ACTUALLY true… Thriving DOES NOT take away from our health, wealth or time… so why was it still feeling like not every need was being met while I took the time, resources and space I needed to thrive?

That is very simple. lol

Because I was trusting ME to provide for them all, not God. IT IS TRUE. When I thrive I have so much more to give to everything and everyone around me…

But the BELIEF that I was solely responsible for everyone’s needs was causing me to have an experience of needs not being met.

Which creates a LIE.
The LIE is Thriving = sacrifice, depletion, or disconnection.

LIE. LIE. LIE.

Truth?
** The same power that created the stars and ocean is alive in me… and I am limitless in him. **
** When you are willing to receive thriving, the whole Universe conspires to bring you your good.**

Say it with me!!!!

I reject the lie that thriving equals sacrifice, depletion, or disconnection. That is not my story anymore. Thriving is my natural state. Thriving is not heavy – it is light, joyful, and free. Thriving does not take from me; it gives to me. When I thrive, I become more of who God created me to be. My health thrives because my body knows how to heal and regenerate. My relationships thrive because love flows naturally when I am aligned with my joy. My purpose work thrives because I am in tune with the abundance and guidance of the Divine.

Thriving isn’t hard; it’s effortless when I allow myself to be supported by God. It’s not something I need to force or figure out – it’s who I am. I am worthy of ease. I am worthy of overflow. I am worthy of having enough time, enough energy, enough money, and enough love. I am worthy of waking up every day in alignment with peace and power.

I no longer believe that thriving comes with a cost. Thriving is not a trade-off, it’s a flow. The more I pour into myself, the more I have to give to others. The more I prioritize my health, my joy, and my alignment, the better I am as a mother, as a partner, and as a guide in my purpose work. Taking care of myself is not selfish – it’s sacred.

Every time I choose to show up for myself, I show up for the people I love. Every time I move my body, nourish it with food, and honor its needs, I am creating a vessel for God to work through. Every time I step into my purpose, I’m aligning with the divine assignment on my life. And every time I allow myself to rest, to laugh, to experience joy, I am giving thanks for the gift of being alive.

I reject the overwhelm and the lie that it’s all too much. It’s not too much – it’s exactly what I was made for. God doesn’t give me more than I can handle. And He doesn’t ask me to do it all alone. I release the belief that I have to figure it all out, and I trust that everything is unfolding perfectly. I don’t need to push – I just need to receive.

Thriving is safe. Thriving is natural. Thriving is my birthright. I align with thriving in every area of my life. My health radiates vitality. My relationships are overflowing with love and connection. My work is an expression of my soul’s purpose. My finances flow with abundance, and I am free to enjoy my life fully.

Today, I choose thriving. I choose joy. I choose ease. I choose trust. I let go of every belief that says I need to sacrifice myself to have a good life. I am creating a life where it all gets to coexist – health, wealth, love, freedom, and spiritual alignment. This is the truth I live by now. Thriving is who I am. Thriving is how I show up. Thriving is how I lead. And it just keeps getting better.

AND SO IT IS!!!
Amen.

Protecting through self-sabotage in health????

Protecting through self-sabotage in health????

This morning I prayed for restoration in my health… and full exposing of all holding me back. I declared it as I woke up in pain from sitting yesterday creating all day.

I felt an even deeper birth of knowing that my words hold all the power needed to heal. Deeper and deeper we go into God’s power.

And just like that within the hour – all of a sudden I could see the mischief playing out. From the sexual assaults in my life to being drowned in the tub and men being obsessed with me… to being told harm should come to me so I would lose weight… full circle trauma.

I could all of a sudden see how I’d chosen to protect myself through making sure I wasn’t too desirable. How reconnecting with my body in a way of powerful self-care in this physical way felt like letting them all win.

Gotcha!
Lies lies lies.
They currently still feel VERY true but I can see it plain as day, they’re not.

I cried and let it all out and started journaling…

> What am I afraid will happen if I focus on my health and body now?
> What would feel unsafe about embracing fitness consistently?
> What do I need to feel safe and loved as I take small steps forward?

I am reclaiming my rights to divine health after so many years of trauma.
I’m claiming my x7 back everything that was taken from me.

Say it with me:
I am done letting fear run the show. Fear has tried to protect me, but it’s been lying to me. It told me I wasn’t safe in my body, but that’s not true –
I am safe in my body. My body is my home. My body is mine. It’s not here for anyone else to judge, harm, or objectify.

Fear told me that if I let go, I’d lose myself, but I see now that holding onto fear has only kept me small. Letting go doesn’t make me weaker – it makes me stronger. I can release fear and still hold my power. I can let go of the lies and still stay safe.

I don’t need fear to protect me anymore. I have wisdom now. I have strength now. I have boundaries now. I trust myself to see clearly and to take care of myself.

Fear told me that focusing on my body would make me vain, shallow, or disconnected from God, but that’s a lie. My body is a sacred gift. It’s not separate from my spirit – it’s an expression of it. Taking care of my body doesn’t pull me away from my path – it helps me walk it with energy, strength, and joy.

Fear told me I couldn’t trust myself. That if I became too radiant, too alive, too magnetic, I’d lose control. But that’s not true either. My beauty, my radiance, my magnetism – they are MINE. They don’t make me vulnerable; they make me powerful. I am the one who decides who gets to access my energy, my light, my presence.

Fear told me that if I heal, if I let go, then the people who hurt me win. But I see now that holding onto pain doesn’t protect me – it chains me to the past. Letting go is not giving in. Letting go is freedom. Letting go is my way of saying, ‘You don’t get to control me anymore’.

I am safe. I am whole. I am free to move, to heal, to thrive. Fear doesn’t get to define me anymore. I define me. And I say that I am worthy of peace. I am worthy of energy. I am worthy of vitality. I am worthy of love.

I am not what happened to me. I am not what was said to me. I am not the lies fear tried to sell me. I am power. I am healing. I am everything I need to be right here, right now, and I am only getting stronger.

And
So
It
Is

Longing to serve

Longing to serve

I long to serve with every ounce of my strength…

I yearn to LOVE in a way that is free of self-preference and self-preservation.

…. And that takes physical, emotional and spiritual strength.

It means eating well.
It means working out daily.
It means strong relentless boundaries with toxic people.
It means praying and protecting myself every morning before I pray for others.

… facing the toxic vanity culture we live in and choosing to not participate.

It means standing beside powerful, extraordinary humans and not comparing.

… choosing to train my children so we have a peaceful family life.
… keeping my commitments.
… and doing what I can now, today, this moment.

It means going the extra mile in my own home.
The extra mile taking care of myself…
My family.
My home.
My personal space.
And my partner.

It means shifting from trying to get everyone on my timeline and getting on theirs.
It means looking for opportunities to help.
It means seeing them in their greatness and endlessly reflecting it back to them.

IT MEANS NO COMPLAINING.
No going into the fear.
No giving into the temptation that promises relief… and gives chaos.

It means to get still.
Listen.
And obey.

It means remembering every waking second that my true strength comes from God… and doing my best to align my powerful WILL to God’s as I walk.

It means remembering that LOVE is the teacher, not me.
It’s remembering LOVE is a verb.
It’s remembering that being able to LOVE is an incredible honor and gift that brings deep joy in the end.

And every day I see myself strengthen in this new way just a little.
And a little bit more.
And a little bit more.

It’s a dream come true.